3/26/2018 0 Comments OverwhelmedSo many things to do and not enough time. I applied to a bunch (4-6 jobs) on Saturday and now they have been reaching out to me. I was honestly surprised that so many of them reached back out to me because I felt I didn’t have enough qualifications…. Now they all want phone calls with me, and I just don’t even know if the jobs I applied to are worth my time because what if I’m not actually interested and waste both of our time (me and the company).
I had a spontaneous phone call between classes today already, and it had a glamorous title of a entrepreneurship- management training program. Her name was Jennifer, and she invited me out in two weeks to Glen Ellyn, Chicago after I told her I’d be gone this upcoming week for Easter at home in Detroit. It’s a startup smaller company but the job she described to me seemed more so of marketing. It sounded interesting and fun nevertheless, I would be willing to try. However, the weekend that Connected Concepts wants me to come out is the same weekend that my mom has been counting down in her calendar to visit Oxford. I have two conflicting high priorities at stake and I feel that either option is a lose- lose with no “wins” involved. This is because I just need to be employed to stop feeling so anxious and relax about life, but I might not like the company or might screw up the interview. If my mom doesn’t get to visit she’ll be bummed she missed it last year and never get another time to visit and hold it over my head for eternity. Otherwise, she’ll come to Oxford and probably just keep reminding me that I have an unknown future since it’s a crucial talking point nowadays. It’s exhausting being a people pleaser. Heck, how am I supposed to figure out what I want to do with my life if the whole time I’m just trying to make sure everyone else is okay. I feel as though my parents always want something from me that I do not give them. I try my best to involve them in my life, and their own way they try to help the best they can. In the end, it backfires and consumes my time that I need to spend elsewhere not lagging too far behind in school because I am always playing catchup. Though, the whole reason I am in school is because of them. It is quite a bizarre thing honestly. I am going home this weekend for easter to “relax” and I already feel overwhelmed with how much I have to do. I was pretty much guilted into it because my grandma is declining very fast and hopefully will at least recognize my face or still know some English. I love her to death but it’s not uplifting for me anymore to see her since she is not person I have known my whole life. On the other hand, the mere thought of losing her is the absolute worse thought to have.
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